So today is my birthday. At this age rasanya sama je, xde ada apa yang berbeza cuma I rasa I'm more mature in handling any kind of situation especially dugaan hidup ini. I try to look on the positive side of it and the reason why it happened. Sebab kalau I nak pikirkan all this issues, I boleh jadi gila. I don't need anyone's advise or tell me what I should do or think, you are not in my situation, you will never understand. Kalau you kena, you boleh bunuh diri, I'm serious. I took a different approach, I go with the flow and hope for the best in the future. Whatever happened right now, I just brush it aside sebab kalau I nak susah hati pun problem tak akan resolve unless kalau I mati, satu masalah la pulak kena seksa kat kubur knowing I'm a sinner! Yang penting both of us still have each other to rely on and giving each other support or else, we don't know what to do should the other one gone.
As for my birthday nie, I tidur awal malam tadi, pukul 10pm dah masuk bilik. Tidur siang ke tak tidur siang still mata I akan mengantuk around that time or earlier than that. I jarang tidur siang but there a time where hari-hari I tidur siang sampai 2 or 3 hours but sekarang nie I tak nak tidur siang sebab banyak benda I nak buat and my brain susah nak rest. So pagi tadi I bangun solat subuh and duduk kat meja belajar. Husband I pun siaplah nyanyi lagu happy birthday tapi I buat tak tau sebab hati I tengah tertanya-tanya, eh where is my birthday present? hahaha.. I know your aunty nie memang melampau, dah tua-tua pun tetaplah nak present kan, *cubitkan. Husband I kept on singing lepas tu bila dia tengok no respond dia datang dekat, cuit-cuit la, cium-cium, I still buat tak tau sambil pandang screen computer and buat-buat senyum kelat dan tak ikhlas tapi hati rasa perit. You tau la I kan, tak boleh sembunyikan perasaan I, kalau I tak puas hati, it will show on my face. No wonder la pelakon gred B nie tak pernah naik ke gred A.
I cakap today I tak nak masak, al maklum alasan birthday, you boleh hantar ke, dia kata boleh, I kata nanti la I akan call dia nak makan apa. Fikiran kacau you sebab menanti present tak kunjung tiba. I tak kisah la apa-apa hadiah janji dalam bungkusan or wrapper cantik-cantik siap dengan ribbon wakaka... gilakan aunty nie hehehe. Yelah, kerana diriku begitu berharga - sambil meminjam iklan Loreal dahulu kala. Bila dia dah nak pegi kerja, dia hulur tangan nak salam macam biasa, I cium tangan dia tapi mulut I muncung. Dia tanya, eh, kenapa muncung nie, I kata tak ada apa-apa (dengan tone mendatar hahahaha...) and mata masih tengok screen nie.
(First time buat birthday cake sendiri you, alahai buruknya. I tak tulis kat atas tu, malas, yang penting I finally managed to made one and in between tu I belah and ada cream tau)
Around 10am tadi, I decided to buat cake birthday sendiri berpandukan resepi omputih kat internet. I pilih Easy Orange Cake (nama pun easy memang sangat easy). Rupa alahai buruk yang amat tapi tak apa lah first time buat birthday cake sendiri siap degan cream icing tapi bila I jilat ada macam krup krup la pulak, ah sudah. Nasib baik I dah kurangkan gula, kalau tak mesti manis. Oh my mummy ada call early in the morning but I was so busy so I kata I akan call dia balik. Kakak I yang pussy lagi chicken itu pun whatsapp setelah sekian lama membawa diri masing-masing, dia wish hantar birthday gambar kumpulan K-Pop on which I don't know and bagi emoticon kiss. Mula-mula ingat tak nak kasih emoticon kiss tapi I pikir bagi la balik walau hati I masih terhiris berkali-kali and akan kekal sampai bila-bila masa. Lagipun I kena tunjuk contoh I orang Islam, mature dan I tak nak memutuskan hubungan silaturahim - bedosa you, but I won't be the same in fact nowadays I mind my own business and I hardly or never talk to any of my friends except Yati. Then Khairul pun hantar whatsapp wish from him and his family. That was very kind of him sementelah birthday kita orang selang sehari.
Tengahari husband I pun balik and bawak food, ma'am besar yang perasan birthday dia special hari nie nak relax. Dia belikan I belon and Secret Recipe's cake (nanti I post on my siri birthday part 2). Eh I kata, kenapa you beli, I kan dah buat. Dia kata tak apa nanti dia boleh bawak cake yang I buat tu ke office. Then I pun buat muka muncung balik, I cakap, tunggu orang bagi hadiah tak bagi-bagi. Malam tadi pun tak bagi, pagi nie pun tak dapat ( gedikkan aunty korang nie hahaha). Dia kata, dah ada tapi tak sempat nak ambik. Eh, I kata apa hadiah yang nak kena tunggu siap nie but eh, jangan cakap, I nak surprise (kan too much hahaha..). Dia kata tak sempat nanti petang dia ambik... Wah curious I.