Goodbye 2009, Welcome 2010

2009...hmmm... What have I achieved so far? These are the question that always comes to mind at the end of each year for as long as I can remember.

Looking back... there are a few ups/down and things that had happened to me. It’s not much though. There are things that I regret so much and I wish I never done it or went through with it. I always told myself past is past but I can’t help being sad and angry at the same time. I hate what I did. I can’t stop blaming myself and how stupid I am.

Back to what have I achieved so far.... well, I learn how to sew and make my own dress. I’m still a rookie though but I can see that I’m in a right path. And my lesson with the school will be over by end of January next year but I thought of pursuing it further. I have lots of plan in mind for the future. I can feel that 2010 would bring something good to my/our life.

Ok now about the habit that I picked up this year... the bad thing is, I cursed and swore like "The Sopranos" when I’m pissed off. I really really need to stop this because I might be in a situation where I would be surrounded by some relatives or a respected people and out of nowhere those “beautiful” language might come out of my mouth...oh God imagine...

The good thing is, I learned to control my patience (yeah right, sapa yg sepak mesin jahit aritu dan mengomel sambil mencangkung kat LRT?). I’m more understanding and I would quickly say sorry if I did something wrong even if it is not my mistake to my husband. I look on the good side of other people. But the biggest achievement so far for me was and still, is that I managed to carry on with my dressmaking project. I was so worried that this would be another “the half way thing” like my other projects such as piano lesson, knitting, beading/accessories and sketching/drawing. But I’m glad that I still want to continue with my latest project. Thanks God! In fact, I planned to pursue it further by learning a different design other than the one the school give us. I planned to do a personal/solo or with my friends and having an outside class with the teacher. I planned to take up a curtain, pillow case etc. package that the school have but the timing was not right. I don’t know how it goes, we’ll see. Finally, I’m not a “half way girl” anymore, well not for this project anyway. I do hope this good attitude would carry on even on other future project.

As for my diet, eating right and exercise well..... mmm..well.. I kinda...let it go and not following the regime... haha... I will go back to my threadmill soon...(janji pelesu), you see I’m so busy right now... (alasan). I tried not to eat too much but I’m always hungry (cakap je kau memang tamak). Yea yea, I will try again...

So there’s not much happened to me this year but I don’t like 2009. Except for towards end of this year where I start to see some progression in my life. I hope 2010 will bring something new, exciting, fresh and most importantly... I hope both of us will have a good and healthy life, become a better person, mature as our age progress and be closer to God The Almighty. Amin.

This is the quote given to me by my sister through texting earlier on ;

Count the garden by the flowers, never by the leaves that fall. Count your life with smile and not the tears that roll. May your NEW YEAR 2010 filled with happiness and Joy... Happy New Year Everyone....

P/S : Budak Kecik (one of our rabbit), passed away peacefully 2 days before New Year sob sob... bye Miss Grey @ Ketua Penyangak @ Budak Kecik @ Si Tamak, hope to see you someday.....

Have a Little Faith - Mitch Albom

My husband bought me this book as a birthday present about a couple months ago. And I abis baca buku nie about 3 weeks ago. So this is the last book that I read for this year.

What can I tell you about this book? Well..not much sebab this is the book yang I tak berapa suka dalam semua buku-buku Mitch Albom yang I ada. This book is more about his relationship with his rabbi and pastor of My Brother’s Keeper. It is also his personal spiritual journey or finding or rediscovering of his belief/religion. But it is more about a story of his rabbi. Banyak bende-bende baru yang dapat I pelajari tentang agama Judaism dan perangai dorang nie. Serba sedikit menyentuh pasal system pembelajaran (ada sekolah khas yang sungguh bersistem untuk anak-anak dorang nie) tentang agama dorang yang telah di pupuk sejak kecil lagi. Lesson yang di ajar... you wouldn’t believe it. No wonder kaum dorang nie pandai-pandai, selain dari pandai memanipulasi segala-gala di dunia nie. I try to keep an open mind about this whole thing, I mengambil langkah neutral dalam pembacaan ini. I ambik dan jadikan panduan apa yang patut. I have to agree with some of what was said but I can’t help being menyampah.

Ok secara ringkasnya kisah nie pasal rabbi dia suruh dia tulis and bagi eulogy (kisah hidup etc.) for his future funeral. So bermula la hubungan antara dua insan nih.... (wah mcm info drama RTM je).

Mitch menulis pasal kisah rabbi dia seolah-olah rabbi dia nie adalah saint. Macam perfect giler. Although banyak pengajaran dapat I perolehi such as hubungan antara manusia dan juga dengan Tuhan. Yang pasti cerita nie biasa-biasa saje dan langsung tak menyedihkan walau I baca review kat paper ada yang kata sedih sampai menangis-nangis.. but untuk orang secengeng I, buku ini tidak bisa menititskan airmata I walau sezarah pun.

Ke Craftworld Shop

Masa pegi class on Monday night Siti showed me a pencil like “kapur” where you can refill for fabric use which was so cool and a bobbin needles where you can terus jahit with your sewing machine without having to take it off during the process and it wouldn’t break at all. She bought it at Craftworld SS/2, in fact she has been telling me for quite a while, so yesterday afternoon I decided that I want to go there, let just say it was a spur of the moment thing. I called up my husband and told him about it and kebetulan dia on the way nak balik. Before that I dah checked through the internet about the location and name of the shop. Then I texted Siti to confirmed of the shop's bane as she always referred to the place as SS2. Siti asked me whether I want to go there, I said after asar and I tanya dia nak kirim apa, she said she want a weight fabric. So lepas asar both of us (me and hubby) keluar but we’re not using our car, instead we used LRT because kalau nak pegi area SS memang jam around this time and beside we don’t know mana tempatnya.

For as long as I can remember this was the second time in my life that I used LRT. The first time masa mula-mula launched dulu. Sampai situ terus beli card, time nak masukkan card pun macam orang sakai sebab tak tau and terbalik lagi. Terjengau-jengau kejap. Bila LRT sampai, wah, I was so excited, maklum kira tak pernah naik la. Masuk je dah tak ada tempat duduk, I choose dekat tepi corner pintu. Mula-mula tu seronok tengok rumah orang and view dari tingkap sebab boleh tengok dari atas eventhough pemandangan was so yike at most of the place. Yela, dengan longkang besar and belakang rumah orang.

After a while I dah mula bored sebab station LRT yang kita orang akan stop nanti is so far away from the LRT that we naik tu. It was at the second last of the LRT station nunnn kat Taman Bahagia. I was getting tired of standing and with the people yang ramai berhimpit-himpit kat dalam. I dah mula stress and sesak nafas, rasa nak muntah pun ada. I start complaint kat husband I and throw a little bit of tantrum. I masamkan muka yang memang dah kelat ini. I siap mengomel macam mak nenek tapi volume I, I lower kan la, tak mo la orang dengarkan tau malu la jugak. Husband I try to eased my "pain". I buat muka monyok yang amat. I kata penat la bediri nie... padahal ada sorang perempuan pregnant 8 9 bulan masuk sama dengan I and bediri on the opposite site of me relak aje.
I memang teruk la.

Then I dah tak tahan, I kata kat husband I, I don’t care I want to sit. Dia kata duduk kat atas kaki kasut dia, I kata tak apa. Tanpa memperdulikan orang ramai sekeliling I, I terus duduk mencangkung tepi pintu dengan tangan I memegang besi tepi pintu tu..hahahaha... kaki I penat bediri takan I nak menyeksa diri. Bila I dah duduk mencangkung tu, tak ada la nampak view view yang sungguh tidak mempersonakan itu instead nampak awan je la.... Sesambil tu mata I asyik tengok station stop punya sign kat atas ceiling LRT and siap kira berapa station lagi.

Bila dah sampai aje, I was so relieved, cepat-cepat I sedut udara kat luar sebab rasa macam nak muntah angin je. Then cepat-cepat kita orang dapatkan teksi sebab hujan turun renyai-renyai. The place is not far from the LRT station Taman Bahagia tu. Nasib baik tak jam nak ke situ. Masuk kedai tu I tengok, Craftworld shop nie mainly is for those yang suka craftwork, patches etc. and barangan for menjahit baju is not much but ada la bende yang dekat kedai yang specifically jual barangan menjahit tak ada but kat sini ada i.e. kapur refill etc. I bought a few of the stuff kat situ and after a while kita orang balik.

Yeaaaaaa...balik pun naik LRT jugak...tensionnn... kalau dekat tak apa la jugak, ini jauh yang amat. Tak ada choice, nak suruh teksi driver hantar balik KL dia kata jam giler kalau time time macam tu. Sampai LRT station Taman Bahagia, husband I beli ticket to the last LRT station, station Kelana which was one station away from station Taman Bahagia nie, dia takut I tak ada tempat duduk, kang ada yang kena duduk mencangkung balik nanti hehehe...

Dekat pukul 8pm baru sampai our LRT station. I told my husband I swear, this is going to be the last time I ke situ or even naik LRT. Tak sanggup rasanya, kalau dekat mungkin I boleh consider tapi kalau nak ke LRT station Taman Bahagia lagi..no way man. Sampai je terus kita orang pegi makan, laparrr ooo....Oh kita orang dapat discount ticket kat Craftworld tu and dorang akan call and ask us to collect the discount ticket bila ready nanti. I kata kat husband I, you pegi sorang, I tak mau pegi dah....

Stupid Sewing Machine

Last night I went to my class as usual but this time I brought along my portable sewing machine. It was my first time actually. So when it comes the time to use it, all of a sudden, sewing machine bajingan tu tak dapat berfungsi dengan betul. I was so mad, as it was not the first time it had happened to me. In fact this was like a third time. Masa mula-mula kena tu, husband I dah bawak pegi tempat membeli tu and within second orang tu dah dapat betulkan. Then about a week later the thing started to act lagi. But after a few slam bam dari I, tiba-tiba jadi ok balik. Then a few weeks later, dia start buat hal lagi sekali. Then lepas I hentam hentam dia ok lagi sekali. After that everything went smoothly, or so I thought. And last night, the stupid bloody sewing machine buat hal lagi..I was so mad, I siap tendang lagi.. I dah tak boleh tahan dah... kesian dorang yang tengok tu hahaha...mesti tekejut sebab first time I naik angin macam tu. Mana tak, dekat sejam I cuba nak perbetulkan and my jarum siap bengkok lagi... After that I called up my husband and ranting about how mad I am.. dia kata no worries...

Masa husband I datang ambik I malam tadi, apa lagi I mengomel and menyumpah seranah sewing machine singer tak guna tu. I kata I tak mau dengar perkataan singer and I don’t want to have anything to do with it anymore. Because ini kali ketiga machine brand tu buat hal kat I. First time husband I belikan was at Bintulu, mula-mula lagi dah buat perangai and then the second time husband I belikan was when we was in our old house, second sewing machine tu macam kes yang pertama, benang asyik kusut and now this one the third time, bawah tempat letak skoci asyik terangkat and stuck I punya kain sampai koyak!

Anyway, hari nie I datang class lagi so kiranya dua hari berturut-turut, malam tadi and this morning. Class pagi nie start pukul 10am to 2pm. Cikgu Aishah kena cepat-cepatkan class because by end of this month dia dah berhenti dan diberhentikan kerja. Ada masalah between her and the management. Oh my, not again tukar cikgu. Her teaching was/is ok and I enjoyed learning from her walaupun dia kerek. Apa nak buat.. But she told me that she still can teach me outside the class i.e. coming to her house and will teach me a different pattern/style/design. Apparently she overheard me talking to Yati about package yang I nak ambik tapi sekolah tu dah batalkan/bekukan I think, I’m not sure. So I said yes when she approached me about the new lesson.

Just now at the class, we were discussing about which or what design yang I nak belajar dulu. I told her I want to learn how to make a gown/dress. Nanti dia akan bagi I buku latihan, I akan buat pola sendiri and bring it to the class to show her but we wouldn’t be using sekolah punya facility. No way man.. even kertas pun I beli sendiri. I cuma bawak pola tu nanti and show it to her that’s all.

About the stupid sewing machine, my husband called me up masa kat class tadi and told me that dia dah hantar sewing machine bajingan tu and dapat exchange with industrial sewing machine, but yang this one untuk jahitan lurus (yang digunakan di kilang-kilang) bukan yang jahit tepi tu yang tu I dah ada. Kat class yang I belajar nie pun ada and just now I guna yang jenis tu and it is good for my practice before the new sewing machine arrive to our house tomorrow. As for portable sewing machine, we planned to buy brand brother or similar to it but we're not in a hurry.

Farmville

(Di halaman rumah)

I have no idea what to write but the weird thing was when I keluar sight seeing, macam-macam topic datang kat kepala I. Kalau dalam kereta, husband I borak dengan I, memang I tak dengar sebab my mind stray away into what I’m thinking, wondering and dreaming. Then bila sampai rumah, kepala hotak I blank balik.

Anyway, dalam ber’farming’ nih, I come to understand character orang-orang secara dalaman, who and how they think, although tak ada la secara terperinci but sikit-sikit tu kita boleh kenal orang tu macamana. Contohnya dalam soal pembahagian share. I noticed tak banyak yang nak share their wealth with others. I hairan sebab bila share orang, secepat kilat dia nak sapu but when it comes to hers or his, dia skip and tak mau publish/share. It is a give and take situation. Takan you nak take but you don’t give? Why do they have that kind of attitude/character? I know it is just a game and everybody have their own right to give or to share. But without they realising it, their true character shows regardless in real life or in a game because human being tend to act and fall into their habit. Tak kira la apa bangsa, mat salleh ke, arab ke, melayu ke, etc.. sama je.. Sebab human behaviour tak mengenal bangsa atau agama sekalipun...

(Belakang backyard bersama wagon, harvester (biru), tractor (for plowing) dan seeder (untuk menanam))

As for me, I don’t mind sharing whatever I have with the public. I dapat and the other party pun dapat jugak. Apa yang ruginya kita memberi or share kita punya wealth. It is just a game. Bukan kita bagi harta/duit kita betul-betul. Kadang-kadang I pikir, kalau la I boleh stop dorang yang kedekut nie dari ambik apa-apa yang I publish for those yang share macam I, tak ke bagus. I percaya kepada prinsip the more you give, the more you get. Because we will get a lot out of it, percayalah. Kat game pun boleh dapat ‘rezeki’ kalau niat dan tak stingy macam real life. I may not be “rich” yet (ada la ratus ratus ribu kat account, kataku belagak) tapi I punya tanah dah tahap plantation (22 x 22). My level pun dah 28 walau tak sampai sebulan ber’farming’. (Yela tu, hari-hari mengadap farmville, maunya tak cepat naik level kah kah kah...). And I’m waiting for the mighty plantation yang masih belum dibuka/coming soon. So much for wanting to be a pekebun kecil-kecilan hahahaha.....

(Bersama binatang ternakan)

As for free gifts, hari-hari I send free gifts to all my neighbours i.e. yang bagi I regularly, meaning returning each other gifts and yang tak bagi tu I still hantar for a few times and bila dia still ambik but tak bagi/return, I akan stop because quota satu hari hanya untuk 60 orang and offcourse I akan bagi keutamaan pada my loyal gifter. And bila ada extra “vacancy” only then I bagi kat yang tak bagi tu, itupun depends.

But well, lain orang lain la corak game dorang. Whatever their reasons ...only they know why... Wah, seriousnya I kui kui kui....

Maal Hijrah 1431

It is not to late for me to wish Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru Maal Hijrah 1431 buat semua umat Islam di seluruh dunia. To tell you the truth, I don’t know much about kisah penghijrahan Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. dari Kota Makkah ke Madinah nie until I checked from the internet and discussed with my husband. I discovered that it was the most important event in the calendar of Islam. I think I pernah tanya dulu but I tak ingat kot.

I jumpa somewhere kat internet earlier on today.. This is for those yang jahil macam I.

Sejarah Ringkas Hijrah

UMUMNYA hijrah bermaksud berpindah dari satu tempat ke satu tempat yang lain. Penghijrahan komuniti Muslim pada zaman Rasulullah SAW berlaku sebanyak tiga kali. Pertama, hijrah ke Habsyah pada 615 Masihi, kedua juga ke Habsyah pada 617 Masihi dan ketiga ialah hijrah Rasul SAW ke Yathrib pada 622 masihi. Mengenai hijrah ke Yathrib, Rasulullah SAW ada menceritakan dalam hadisnya yang bermaksud: “Aku melihat dalam tidurku aku berhijrah dari Makkah ke satu tanah yang banyak pokok kurma. Pada mulanya aku menyangka Yamamah atau Hajar, rupa-rupanya ia adalah Madinah, iaitu Yathrib.” – (Hadis riwayat Bukhari) Pada peringkat awal, Rasulullah hanya memperkenalkan Islam kepada sahabat terdekat dan ahli keluarga baginda. Apabila baginda menerima perintah daripada Allah SWT supaya berdakwah secara terbuka, baginda segera akur. Baginda mengumpul beberapa pengikut di Makkah. Begitupun, kumpulan kecil Muslim itu terdedah kepada maut berikutan ancaman daripada kaum kafir, terutama bangsa Quraish, yang menyeksa mereka dengan teruk. Bagi mengelakkan ancaman itu, Rasulullah SAW mengarahkan pengikutnya supaya keluar dari Makkah secara senyap-senyap ke Madinah (ketika itu dikenali sebagai Yathrib).

Satu hari pada tahun 622M, iaitu kira-kira 12 tahun selepas berdakwah di Makkah, Rasulullah SAW diberitahu kaum kafirun Makkah merancang membunuh baginda untuk memusnahkan Islam. Malah penduduk Madinah yang baru memeluk Islam juga gembira dapat bertemu Rasulullah (SAW). Jelaslah, sebelum tibanya Rasulullah di Madinah, Islam semakin kukuh di tempat baru itu, sesuatu yang tidak berlaku ketika berada di Makkah. Maka pada hari Isnin 8 Rabiulawal bersamaan 20 September 622M, Rasulullah (SAW) akhirnya tiba di Quba, sempadan Madinah dan benar-benar masuk ke Kota Madinah pada 12 Rabiulawal, hari Jumaat dan mendirikan solat Jumaat yang pertama di Kampung Bani Amar. Kaum Muslimin semua keluar untuk menyambut baginda. Bertitik tolak dari itu, Rasulullah (SAW) mula membina sebuah negara Islam yang megah. Baginda memupukkan persaudaraan di kalangan umat Muslim dan menyeru mereka supaya menegakkan yang hak dan mengikut segala perintah Allah SWT. Kesan daripada penghijrahan Rasulullah (SAW) dari Makkah ke Madinah adalah satu catatan penting sehingga umat Islam menjadikan tahun peristiwa bersejarah ini sebagai tahun permulaan kalendar Islam.

The Gifts by Cecelia Ahern

Dalam busy busy ber”farming” dan melakukan segala activity lain sempat lagi I spend a few precious moment with my book. Biar hectic macam mana sekalipun I will try to squeeze some time for it. Tak kira la time membuang ke, pasti ku capai dengan segeranya. So after two weeks, finally habis jugak buku nie I baca. Apa yang boleh I perkatakan... WOW! Ini la buku fiction yang terbaik pernah I baca dalam hidup I. Belum lagi I temui mana-mana buku yang membuatkan I teruja. Mula-mula tu rasa macam tak best je... tapi lepas a few pages... I terus terpaku....Perjalanan cerita yang mempunyai character, Gabe, yang penuh mistery dan terungkai di penghujung cerita. Berbagai bagai conclusion yang cuba I justify. Kemunculan Gabe membuatkan hidup Lou tidak keruan. Cerita berkisar tentang hidup Lou yang sungguh busy hingga tiada masa bersama keluarga, betapa Lou curang dengan isterinya yang baik itu, kealpaan Lou terhadap ibu bapanya, kerakusan Lou mengejar pangkat dan kedudukan di dalam syarikat membuatkan dia menjadi paranoid.

I menangis teresak-esak towards the end of this book. I ulang balik part-part yang buat airmata I mengalir dengan deras, I nangis lagi. Punyala sentimental Queen sorang nie, yang tak mandi lagi masa tu hehehe.. Nasib baik husband I tak ada sebab best betul melayan perasaan hiba I nie. Kalau dia ada mesti I tak dapat menikmati dengan begitu jitu. Sedih memang teramat-amat sedih. Bila I teringat balik, I akan jadi sebak. Serious... Olahan dan gambaran yang Cecelia tulis, oh my.. she is so brilliant. Her attention to details is superb! The way she described each and every character was so spot on!

Then lepas abis I baca, I called husband I and bagitau betapa best dan sedihnya I baca buku nie hehehe... Abis I nak share dengan siapa? How I wish ada book club kat sini so that I boleh buat discussion and analyse sama-sama, mesti seronokkan?

Yang pasti you all should read this book, I guarantee sesiapa yang suka baca buku berbentuk begini akan agree dengan I. Oh... sediakan tissue banyak banyak....