Hari-Hari Terakhir Seorang Pelajar
I was doing a “menjahit marathon” since last Monday. Reason? sebab I nak habiskan my pengajian (hrrmm..) secepat mungkin. I don’t have much activities last week other than starting from Monday siang I pegi kelas aritu, then on Tuesday, Ida datang cuci rumah sampai petang since the other Tuesday dia tak datang,. I was so tired nak tunggu dia balik, she told me to don’t mind her and just go to sleep. I tak selesa nak take a nap kalau ada orang kat rumah, walaupun dia tak mengacau I. Then on Wednesday evening I went to the class as usual. Next day, Thursday I decided to come at 2.30pm to 6.30pm (tengahari punya time).
Anyway, after class that Thursday, I went to visit my bedridden MIL. And when I talked to her, as usual jugak I have to raise my voice (bukan raise voice marah yea), since my MIL dah tua and tahap pendengaran beliau agak critical sejak akhir-akhir ini. Lain yang I or anybody cakap, lain pula interpretation beliau... (oh... I pun dah mula menampakkan ciri-ciri spt beliau, part-part kurang jelas deria telinga nih... huhuhu). And everytime I look at her condition, I selalu terpikir, adakah bila I tua nanti (yes, I’m still young, hrrmm) nasib or keadaan I akan jadi macam nie. I hope not as I don’t want to menyusahkan orang and I know, my MIL pun feel the same way too but we can only hope and pray since this fate thing is out of our control. Imagine, she can’t even mengiring ke kiri or ke kanan tanpa bibik yang membantu. Macam tu jugak kalau nak makan, kena ada orang suapkan. Kalau nak “membuang” kecil atau besar dia guna lampin orang dewasa and kena ada orang cucikan. She spent most of her time berbaring kat bilik or sekali sekala terpaksa di papah naik wheelchair then transfer to kerusi khas yang disendal dengan bantal kalau nak duduk kat ruang tamu. Walaupun MIL macam tu, tapi dia tak pernah tinggal sembahyang and she’s always constantly ask about the prayer time. Kalau nak ambik air sembahyang dia akan dipapah ke bilik mandi, dicuci and di ambikkan air sembahyang oleh bibik etc. I salute her for that. And also, walau dia dah tua her memory is still sharp. Thanks God dia tak senile or I would be very sad.
Yesterday was my MIL’s birthday. There is some kind of celebration and we were called to the house but I decided not to because I was in my class from morning to evening to finish up my lesson. I was so tired and beside I already visited her last Thursday. I'm glad my husband was so understanding about it. Anyway, I berkenalan dengan student baru during my class yesterday and like I said in my previous entry about people telling me about cerita alam mistik? Well, this girl yang I baru kenal cerita kat I about her friend's encounter with a ghost (macam mana la dia tau I nie penakut tapi suka dengar cerita antu eh?) Next time la I cerita, malas la.. suspense jugak la..
Anyway, tomorrow morning I pegi class and I dah abis belajar buat blouse ada collar/collar bulat berbutang (walaupun I belum jahit button lagi..kira abis la tu.. sebab yang lain tu dah abiskan). And tomorrow I akan belajar buat kain nyonya.. I think by end of this week or one more class next week, my lesson akan abis.. sedih la...